Peace.....Be Still

Lately I have been going through some stressful things and my body hates me. I am on my 3rd round of antibiotics for whatever this is and I'm tired. At first it was an upper respiratory infection and now it's a kidney infection with allergies. I need a little down time from all of the stress and craziness so my poor white blood cell count can come back and keep me healthy!

Today I had a friend come over and apologize for something that happened to me that she was apart of. I didn't expect it and it was nice to hear it and I felt peace again. I felt like a really terrible book I had been reading was finally done and I could close it and put it away. It was wonderful. The rest of my day has been more peaceful and I feel more equipped to handle things.

I want this feeling to hang around for a bit. It's lovely to not have a monkey on your back constantly reminding you to be mad at someone. Or to feel hurt every time that person is around. Feeling that way constantly is exhausting and I think my body was reacting to it. It was saying ," Get Over IT!"

 I want to get healthy. I want to get into a swimsuit and not worry about what I look like in it. Will that day ever happen? I have skinny friends who think they look awful all of the time. I want to feel good and fit into my clothes. That's it.

I have a month until our trip to Mexico. Yep. I have to go to a completely different country before I will put on a swimsuit in front of anyone. :) I' m really excited to go and relax and hang with my friend and her kids and my family. Hopefully no stress or drama and we can come back feeling refreshed and like we actually had a vacation.

We actually have a pretty busy summer ahead of us. End of May is Prescott, beginning of June is Mexico,
4th of July is Payson, and Prescott in between those times, and maybe another trip with friends? We'll see. We may be partied out by then.:)

I am looking forward to our summer schedule and all of the fun that we are going to have this year. I am super grateful for that and I know that Heavenly Father is aware of us and our needs.