I never realized how much I liked being a stay at home mom until I had to work. I was working a night job. It wasn't a big deal and I really liked the freedom that I felt from the paycheck. Unfortunately everything else seemed to suffer. I wouldn't get out of bed until 8 or 9 in the morning and I wouldn't get to see my kids. Then I would be so tired that I couldn't clean or do laundry or do anything for that matter so the house kind of fell into shambles.
My sweet husband was taking kids to school, doing laundry, making dinner, and helping with homework, all because my pregnant body was too exhausted. Speaking of my pregnant body, last week, it hated me. I was nauseous, achy, sinus and ear infection, and had tendinitis in my right arm and couldn't use it. I felt like it was screaming at me to take it easy. So I did. My husband and brother in law had to take over my night job.
Things have definitely calmed down too. It's amazing! I'm able to sleep well at night and wake up happy in the morning. Dishes, laundry, and bathrooms are all done. And I feel so much better about how I'm spending my time. Go figure. When I took my night job, all I could think about was what I would be able to do with the money I got. It never occurred to me that other important things would end up suffering.
So here's to the little things that we so often take for granted.
I'm grateful for:
1. This new baby
2. My husband
3. That my youngest has 1/2 day Kindergarten instead of full fay.
4. That I can stay at home and take care of this place
5. Washing Machines and Dryers
6.Clean sheets (I always sleep so much better on them)
7. Health Insurance
8.Stouffer's Lasagna (It saved me last night)
9.Obedient Children
10. Prayer. It helps me get through the day.
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Friday, January 18, 2013
So grateful for good friends.
Yesterday wasn't a really great day. I felt yucky all day and couldn't really get going. One of my sweet friends sent me a simple text. It said How R U doing? Anyone that knows me knows that I hate to text. It's so inconvenient for me. I'm always busy doing something with my hands and it's easier for me to cradle the phone between my head and shoulder. Sorry.
So we had a lovely chat. I needed it. It really picked my spirit's up and I actually made something that night that resembled dinner. Something so simple as a good chat. Huh. Who knew? She was so understanding and positive as I spoke to her about my ordeals and my lack of enthusiasm at that particular moment. That to me is a true friend. Being concerned, acting on a prompting, and taking a minute to talk to someone. Nothing grand or forced.
So we had a lovely chat. I needed it. It really picked my spirit's up and I actually made something that night that resembled dinner. Something so simple as a good chat. Huh. Who knew? She was so understanding and positive as I spoke to her about my ordeals and my lack of enthusiasm at that particular moment. That to me is a true friend. Being concerned, acting on a prompting, and taking a minute to talk to someone. Nothing grand or forced.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Humbled yet?
The more I talk to people about this pregnancy the more I realize that I tell them that this pegnancy has been very humbling. You don't usually thing of the words pregnancy and humbling together but that's what it has been for me. Let me explain.
Before I found out that I was pregnant, I was finally getting comfortable and grateful for the calmness and peace that had come into my life. We had been through a lot and now we were in our new house, I had a great new night job that was helping us out financially, and all of my kids were healthy. Everything was going great! 2013 was supposed to be an awesome year.
Now here I sit, pregnant, sick, and frustrated. Believe me, I'm not complaining. We had tried for 3 years to become pregnant and nothing happened. So this baby is definitely a recognized blessing. What I'm muddling through is the fact that I'm not in control of my life. That has been a very hard pill to swallow. And a very humbling one too.
I have been so sick. I can't cook meals, clean bathrooms, work too hard at night, do laundry, or go more than two hours without eating. Every smell imagineable makes me want to barf. It's been extremely hard. How can I go from having an immaculate house, dinner on the table every night, working a night job, and having it all together, to not getting out of my pajamas all day long? It's been a lot to deal with in a short period of time. All of a sudden I feel like a lazy useless person. I can't function. When I try and force myself to do something, there is usually hell that follows.
I am trying to have faith that this will get better. I have one more month until my second trimester starts. Hopefully all of this will disappear by then. I'm ready to get back to the way things were.
Before I found out that I was pregnant, I was finally getting comfortable and grateful for the calmness and peace that had come into my life. We had been through a lot and now we were in our new house, I had a great new night job that was helping us out financially, and all of my kids were healthy. Everything was going great! 2013 was supposed to be an awesome year.
Now here I sit, pregnant, sick, and frustrated. Believe me, I'm not complaining. We had tried for 3 years to become pregnant and nothing happened. So this baby is definitely a recognized blessing. What I'm muddling through is the fact that I'm not in control of my life. That has been a very hard pill to swallow. And a very humbling one too.
I have been so sick. I can't cook meals, clean bathrooms, work too hard at night, do laundry, or go more than two hours without eating. Every smell imagineable makes me want to barf. It's been extremely hard. How can I go from having an immaculate house, dinner on the table every night, working a night job, and having it all together, to not getting out of my pajamas all day long? It's been a lot to deal with in a short period of time. All of a sudden I feel like a lazy useless person. I can't function. When I try and force myself to do something, there is usually hell that follows.
I am trying to have faith that this will get better. I have one more month until my second trimester starts. Hopefully all of this will disappear by then. I'm ready to get back to the way things were.
Friday, January 4, 2013
Overwhelmed? Nah.......
So as you read in my last entry we are expecting our 4th child. We found out right before Christmas. That was a really fun thing to be able to tell everyone on Christmas. As a few weeks have gone by, the reality of it has started to sink in.
A few years ago after my 5th miscarriage I decided that it would be a good idea to sell all of our baby/maternity items that I have collected over the year. There was a lot of stuff! Good stuff too! We made about $500 on everything and it felt good to have it all gone. We were building a house at the time and decided that we would have 3 bedrooms instead of 4.
So not only do I have to buy everything for the new baby, we have to figure out the sleeping arrangements for the kids. If this baby turns out to be a boy, we will be fine. 2 boys in each room. No big deal. If it's a girl, she will have her own room and my 3 boys will be squished into one room. Poor kids.
One of my dear friends told me about a second hand kids clothing store. Bless her. I went and checked it out the other day and I can get everything I need there. I am so grateful. Money is a little tight right now. I'm working a night job to help with the finances and it's getting a little hard. I feel nauseous all of the time and I really want to crawl into bed and stay there. I hope I can hang in there until the summer when all of the residents go home and the job gets easier.
We are really excited and scared for the new baby to join the Dana ranks. It's been a long time since we've had a baby in the house and we've gotten used to having a full night's sleep. It's going to be especially tough for me having to go to work at night and then watch the baby during the day. I have a bad feeling that the household duties are going to go by the wayside for awhile. Oh well. Sleep is definitely more important.
We should be able to find out what the baby is in February or March. Yay!!! Hoping for a girl but will be just as excited if it's a boy. I just really want a healthy baby. Cheers!
A few years ago after my 5th miscarriage I decided that it would be a good idea to sell all of our baby/maternity items that I have collected over the year. There was a lot of stuff! Good stuff too! We made about $500 on everything and it felt good to have it all gone. We were building a house at the time and decided that we would have 3 bedrooms instead of 4.
So not only do I have to buy everything for the new baby, we have to figure out the sleeping arrangements for the kids. If this baby turns out to be a boy, we will be fine. 2 boys in each room. No big deal. If it's a girl, she will have her own room and my 3 boys will be squished into one room. Poor kids.
One of my dear friends told me about a second hand kids clothing store. Bless her. I went and checked it out the other day and I can get everything I need there. I am so grateful. Money is a little tight right now. I'm working a night job to help with the finances and it's getting a little hard. I feel nauseous all of the time and I really want to crawl into bed and stay there. I hope I can hang in there until the summer when all of the residents go home and the job gets easier.
We are really excited and scared for the new baby to join the Dana ranks. It's been a long time since we've had a baby in the house and we've gotten used to having a full night's sleep. It's going to be especially tough for me having to go to work at night and then watch the baby during the day. I have a bad feeling that the household duties are going to go by the wayside for awhile. Oh well. Sleep is definitely more important.
We should be able to find out what the baby is in February or March. Yay!!! Hoping for a girl but will be just as excited if it's a boy. I just really want a healthy baby. Cheers!
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