Quiet Confidence

As I have said before on many previous posts, I'm grateful for the challenges I have been given, and for the blessings that have followed them. They may not be the blessings that I would have chosen, but they are still wonderful none the less.

As I was sitting in church on Sunday I was feeling extremely happy. Anyone who has been reading this blog knows that going to church has been really hard for me lately. There are a few women who have been less than nice and gracious to me and I really have been struggling. One of them was speaking at the pulpit and as I was listening to her an overwhelming feeling of peace and pity came over me. I actually felt sorry for her. Anyone who could behave in such a way deserved my pity not my hate and frustration. She was obviously threatened by me for reasons that I can't even understand, but she was. I processed the last 6 months and realized that I had tried to reach out to her on numerous occasions (even though I was the one being attacked by her.) She hasn't reached out once. Hmmm.

So I'm going to just keep on doing what I've been doing. Going about my days, being kind to everyone, putting effort into the relationships that mean something to me, and having the quiet confidence that I have. That is where the blessings come in. The peace that I felt in church on Sunday was amazing. I have really struggled with forgiving and forgetting. It wasn't so much that I was attacked, it was more that I really couldn't believe that grown women still behave that way. It was very disturbing. I think that was the hardest part of the whole thing for me to get over. But when I stopped thinking about it and ignored them, the peace came. The quiet confidence of knowing that I'm not like them and that I would never do anything like that to anyone, and that I don't need to stoop to their level. Which is pretty low.

I am very grateful for a Heavenly Father that is aware of me. Even for the insignificant concerns of my daily life. And this concern that has been bothering me so much is pretty insignificant. My husband has been pretty amazing as well. I am very grateful for his support and love during this hard time. He didn't make me feel stupid for feeling upset and stuck up for me numerous times. I love him dearly. He really made the difference.

I am very excited to say that this is the last post I will be doing about this particular subject.

13 years and counting!!!!

I can't believe that 13 years have already happened! It has really flown by. We have had so many amazing blessings and challenges happen in our married life that it's too much to write down. I am so grateful that I had a partner around that was willing to grow and learn along side me.

Here's the short list of what's happened to us in the last 13 year:

November 2, 1999- Got married

January 2000- Had our first miscarriage

September 2000- Bought our first house

September 2002- Had our first baby

June 2004- I was stalked by a scary old man

July 2004- Had our second baby

July 2004- Sold our first home and bought our second

September 2004- Moved into our second home

December- 2006 Had our third baby

2007- 2009- had 4 more miscarriages

2011- Built our own home and moved

2012- Enjoying our new home and our family

In between all of that we had a ton of fun vacations to Hawaii, Mexico, and family cabins. Life has been interesting, that's for sure. But I'm always grateful for the challenges we've been given and for the blessings that have always followed.