Darling.......You are Fabulous!!!!!

Truth be told, I don't put makeup on everyday. I don't shower everyday. I don't even get dressed in regular clothes every day. But, I do wake my kids up every morning. I take them to school and pick them up. I make dinner on most nights. I do their laundry. I clean the house we all live in. So as far as all of that is concerned, I think I'm doing a pretty fabulous job at the moment. Who cares if I look like Mag the Hag while I'm doing it. ;)

I didn't go to church again. I woke up feeling blah. No energy, headache, and absolutely no desire to dress myself up and pretend to be friendly to people who could care less if I was there or not. It's a little sad. I know church isn't supposed to be about sitting with your friends and talking and feeling included in the group. I know that. But when you're sitting alone and you've tried to talk to people and make an effort and they still ignore you, it's hard to be there. My ward is supposed to split in the fall. I'm a little excited about the new people that will be apart of it. I really hope that there are a few sweet women that are genuine and kind that want to be friends with me. That would be nice.

So today I'm choosing to give myself a pat on the back for all of the hard work I've been doing while on modified bed rest. Yay me.

I Don't Care What Everyone Says, I Think You're Hot. Huh?

Last night as the Mr. and I were snuggling in for the night he leans over and says, I don't care what everyone says, I think you're hot. Hmmmm. My mind immediately goes to..... people say I'm not hot? That's really mean. Wow. That kind of hurt my feelings. I don't think I'm a beauty queen by any means but I clean up well. So I proceed to pepper him with a million questions about who these "people" are. Poor guy. I really think he was trying to be sweet and it came out the TOTALLY wrong way. :) Leave it to me and my super sensitiveness.

Now that I got over that one, I've moved on to thinking about Valentines Day!!!! I'm kind of excited this year. I don't get out much these days and I think it will be fun to get gussied up and go for a nice dinner at Carraba's (Our favorite place). Mind you we will not be dining on Valentines Day. We not much for huge crowds and long lines, it dampens the mood a tad. Nothing fancy but it's so nice to know that he remembered me and wants to take me out in public. :)

Had an interesting day at church yesterday. Haven't been for awhile. I think we're talking months. Not because I haven't wanted to, but because I've been sick with a new pregnancy and have been on bed rest. So I was asked to share when my testimony became real to me. Like I had to get up in front of the whole relief society and tell my most personal moment to complete strangers and people that I barely knew. It was really hard for me. I was suprised at that. Usually I don't have a hard time expressing myself but this time I did. I blubbered and bawled as I told about my many miscarriages, losing our home, and having financial struggles for years. I told them about my frustration and anger at Heavenly Father for letting us struggle so much especially when I was doing exactly what I was supposed to be doing and more. Then I told them about the amazing night when I felt my Heavenly Father and his awareness of me and my needs. Did I mention that I was very blunt while telling this story? I have a very colorful way of talking and I don't think it sits well with everyone. Oh well. They asked to me to do it.

So I am feeling the Spirit a little bit more today and am so grateful for all of the blessings in my life. I am so fortunate and blessed and am grateful for the opportunity to help and serve others.