I'm bad. Really, Really, bad. I worked my buns off last week on the new house and I woke up this morning and could not fathom getting all dolled up to go to church. All I wanted to do was lay in my bed in my comfy pajamas and veg. So I did. Granted I have had a headache for the last four days, but I could have taken an Advil or two and been fine. So I used my two sick kids as excuses and stayed home.
Now I am kicking myself. We have a horrific week ahead of us and I am going to need all the help I can get. Spiritually, physically, and mentally. Needless to say I'm going to need the Spirit with me, lifting me up and carrying me through this. I'm really not trying to be dramatic. It's awful at the old house. I don't think I've cleaned the place for 4 months, and at this point it's definitely looking like it.The bad part is, is that I don't want anyone there cleaning. It's embarrassing!
My wonderful mother is planning on coming over 4 days this week to help me out, AGAIN! I love that woman! I could not have gotten as much done as I have without her and my dad. They have been amazing. I am so grateful and feel very loved.
What's left to do?
1.Finish 2 attic accesses. Filling in nail holes, sanding, and painting. Done!
2.Paint Master bedroom closet door and put handle on. Done!
3.Replace molding near master bathtub
4.Hook up gas lines to furnaces- Done!
5.Turn gas on
6.Clean new office area
7.Move office over
8.Finish moving clothes over- Done!
9.Clean master bathroom- Done!
10.Move bathroom over- Done!
11.Move fencing over
12.Move animals over
13Feb. 4th Moving day!!!!!!
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Friday, January 27, 2012
Progress!
We moved my kitchen over yesterday. To put it simply, that was no small feet. I never realized how many really cool kitchen gadgets I have accumulated over the last 7 years. It was seriously like Christmas going through all of my cupboards! My sweet mother came over and helped me pack everything, wiping it first of course, and then shuttling it over to the new place. Things really starting moving once Mr. D. got there and helped with the lifting and packing. Thank heavens.
Today we are going to clean out the new garage and the old garage so we can focus more on the house. My dad and hubby will be doing those items and my mom and I will be focusing on the office in the old house. Heaven help us. It's bad.
* Just a little thank you to everyone that has offered to help with the move. You are very sweet and thoughtful and I appreciate your willingness to help us. However, my mom and I have found ourselves in some tight spots even for two people and I also have not known where to put everything. So if I had taken you up on your offers to help, I'm afraid that many of you would have been standing around for periods of time doing nothing. So thank you for offering, but I'm not ready to delegate just yet.
I had a little meltdown yesterday in my old kitchen. I hadn't slept well the night before, the house smelled like something has died in it (couldn't figure out where the smell was coming from), it was seriously nasty, and I didn't have one clean bathroom for my mom to use. So I cried for a minute and moved on. I needed it.
As we got moving I felt better. As I started to see the new kitchen filling up, I got nervous. I have a humongous kitchen and I thought for sure that I would have cupboards left empty. Not the case. But oh well. It's nice to have everything organized.
It's off to do more packing and organizing and cleaning. Wish us luck!!!
Today we are going to clean out the new garage and the old garage so we can focus more on the house. My dad and hubby will be doing those items and my mom and I will be focusing on the office in the old house. Heaven help us. It's bad.
* Just a little thank you to everyone that has offered to help with the move. You are very sweet and thoughtful and I appreciate your willingness to help us. However, my mom and I have found ourselves in some tight spots even for two people and I also have not known where to put everything. So if I had taken you up on your offers to help, I'm afraid that many of you would have been standing around for periods of time doing nothing. So thank you for offering, but I'm not ready to delegate just yet.
I had a little meltdown yesterday in my old kitchen. I hadn't slept well the night before, the house smelled like something has died in it (couldn't figure out where the smell was coming from), it was seriously nasty, and I didn't have one clean bathroom for my mom to use. So I cried for a minute and moved on. I needed it.
As we got moving I felt better. As I started to see the new kitchen filling up, I got nervous. I have a humongous kitchen and I thought for sure that I would have cupboards left empty. Not the case. But oh well. It's nice to have everything organized.
It's off to do more packing and organizing and cleaning. Wish us luck!!!
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
You know that girl who seems like she's got it all figured out? She's faking it.
Ha! I love it when people look at me and tell me that I am so tough and that I am a really organized girl that has it all figured out. And yes, people do tell me that. But internally I am laughing, crying, and screaming for a little help!
I have officially become the mom that tells her boys to shut up. I am dreadful. I hate those words but it seems to be the only two words that gives me a few moments of blissful silence before they begin screaming and fighting. I have tried time out, grounding, taking away favorite toys and video games. I am exhausted.
And honestly, I have the right to feel the way I feel with everything that's been happening. I have no idea how I get through the days. I take that back. I do know. I feel as though I am physically being carried. Like someone is behind me picking me up under my arms and carrying throughout my exhaustively nasty days and carrying me home to make dinner for my family. Who by the way have been complaining about my menu choices. The nerve. They are lucky to get anything at this point! Sandwiches are a delicacy at this stage in the game.
It does make me laugh though that other people seem to think those things about me. If I were to look at myself through someone else's eyes I would think:
1.Doesn't she EVER put makeup on?
2. Does she own a hair straightener? Cause yikes!
3. Her kids are hellions. Doesn't she discipline them?
4. Her house is disgusting. Why doesn't she clean it?
5. Is that a Christmas wreath STILL on her front door?
6. Can't she just throw something in the crock pot for dinner instead of scrounging for something for dinner?
Hee hee! I am giving myself permission to not care for the moment. I don't care that I don't "get ready" every day, or that I have so much laundry to do that I can't open my laundry room door, or that I don't make a presentable dinner every night and that sandwiches of every kind are perfectly fine for me. Yep, that's just fine by me.
My husband just called me to see why all of my car doors are hanging wide open and no one is outside. I guess a neighbor called him to see if everything was alright. Well........ The car doors are hanging wide open because I had to run to the feed store to pick up horse pellets, get gas, run home, feed the animals, water the animals, make egg salad sandwiches for dinner, help one child with a book report, and pay bills. Ummmm, yeah. That's why. I was a little preoccupied.
So, I'm not organized, clean, cute, tough, or clear headed at the moment. I am scatter brained, tired, frustrated, and weak, and I NEED A VACATION!
I have officially become the mom that tells her boys to shut up. I am dreadful. I hate those words but it seems to be the only two words that gives me a few moments of blissful silence before they begin screaming and fighting. I have tried time out, grounding, taking away favorite toys and video games. I am exhausted.
And honestly, I have the right to feel the way I feel with everything that's been happening. I have no idea how I get through the days. I take that back. I do know. I feel as though I am physically being carried. Like someone is behind me picking me up under my arms and carrying throughout my exhaustively nasty days and carrying me home to make dinner for my family. Who by the way have been complaining about my menu choices. The nerve. They are lucky to get anything at this point! Sandwiches are a delicacy at this stage in the game.
It does make me laugh though that other people seem to think those things about me. If I were to look at myself through someone else's eyes I would think:
1.Doesn't she EVER put makeup on?
2. Does she own a hair straightener? Cause yikes!
3. Her kids are hellions. Doesn't she discipline them?
4. Her house is disgusting. Why doesn't she clean it?
5. Is that a Christmas wreath STILL on her front door?
6. Can't she just throw something in the crock pot for dinner instead of scrounging for something for dinner?
Hee hee! I am giving myself permission to not care for the moment. I don't care that I don't "get ready" every day, or that I have so much laundry to do that I can't open my laundry room door, or that I don't make a presentable dinner every night and that sandwiches of every kind are perfectly fine for me. Yep, that's just fine by me.
My husband just called me to see why all of my car doors are hanging wide open and no one is outside. I guess a neighbor called him to see if everything was alright. Well........ The car doors are hanging wide open because I had to run to the feed store to pick up horse pellets, get gas, run home, feed the animals, water the animals, make egg salad sandwiches for dinner, help one child with a book report, and pay bills. Ummmm, yeah. That's why. I was a little preoccupied.
So, I'm not organized, clean, cute, tough, or clear headed at the moment. I am scatter brained, tired, frustrated, and weak, and I NEED A VACATION!
Sunday, January 15, 2012
10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1..........Blast off!
We are in the final stretch of our new house being livable. Phew! I can't believe it's almost done! I honestly thought that this would drag on forever!
Things left to do:
1.Paint front door
2.Paint water heater door
3.Have shower door and marble piece installed in master bath
4.Hang interior doors with hardware
5.Have 2 tiny dry wall patches fixed
6.Finish painting one accent wall
7.Clean EVERYTHING!
8.Have final inspection
9.Have A/C charged and started
10.Move dishwasher over and hook up.
11. Buy shelving for pantry
12. Move over!!!!
It almost seems too good to be true. I'm pinching myself right now to make sure that I'm not asleep and dreaming. It will be so nice to get things back to normal. I love having a routine and feeling like I'm accomplishing things daily. I am a total creature of habit and I liked my comfortable life before the chaos erupted. So, once we get moved in we will start planting our garden, bushes, and trees, etc. We will continue working on getting all of the animal fencing over there. And we will start to make it look like a home. I absolutely can't wait! I am so incredibly grateful for this blessing and for the trials that it brought into our lives. We have been to fortunate to have wonderful giving friends and family that have helped us build this house and we are thankful for the time and energy that you've given us in order to help us make this happen. Thank you!
Things left to do:
1.Paint front door
2.Paint water heater door
3.Have shower door and marble piece installed in master bath
4.Hang interior doors with hardware
5.Have 2 tiny dry wall patches fixed
6.Finish painting one accent wall
7.Clean EVERYTHING!
8.Have final inspection
9.Have A/C charged and started
10.Move dishwasher over and hook up.
11. Buy shelving for pantry
12. Move over!!!!
It almost seems too good to be true. I'm pinching myself right now to make sure that I'm not asleep and dreaming. It will be so nice to get things back to normal. I love having a routine and feeling like I'm accomplishing things daily. I am a total creature of habit and I liked my comfortable life before the chaos erupted. So, once we get moved in we will start planting our garden, bushes, and trees, etc. We will continue working on getting all of the animal fencing over there. And we will start to make it look like a home. I absolutely can't wait! I am so incredibly grateful for this blessing and for the trials that it brought into our lives. We have been to fortunate to have wonderful giving friends and family that have helped us build this house and we are thankful for the time and energy that you've given us in order to help us make this happen. Thank you!
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Things I wish someone would have told me.
A friend of mine graciously offered to help me on the new place and while we were working away we were also talking a lot. Throughout our conversation I began to realize that there were a ton of things that I did not know before I got married. Marriage is seriously on the job training. It sucks! I wish I had someone wiser to warn me and help along that journey! It would have helped a lot. So here is a list of things that I wish I had known before I got married.
1. Finish college and get a degree in something. Once you have kids, it's soooooo much harder.
2.Learn to say no. Just because your husband tells you that he needs something done that minute, does not mean that you have jump.
3.Your time is just as valuable as everyone else's. You were not put on this earth to be every one's maid, cook, chauffeur, etc.
4.Find something that you love and are passionate about. It doesn't matter what it is or how corny you may think it is, just find something that is yours and no one else's.
5.Don't whine. It really doesn't do any good and people get very tired of hearing it. Have a good attitude about everything and just get it done.
6.Take care of yourself. Take a bath, buy some pretty lotion, or get your hair done. But maintain your personal worth in your head and don't forget it.
7.Take time and enjoy your children. In the day to day rush it's really easy to get frustrated and mean with your children. Sit down and enjoy them. They will only be little once.
8. Everyday remind yourself why you married your spouse. Remind yourself of what you love about that person and look for the good in them daily.
9.Make friends. Not the kind that blow away at the first sign of wind, but the kind that are there during the tornado. They are priceless.
10. Don't judge others. Everyone has life experiences that shape their perspectives, attitudes, mannerisms, and the way they treat others. We may not fully understand why someone behaves the way they do, but it's not our job to judge them on whether it was right or not. It's our job to have compassion and love towards them. Everyone needs a friend.
11. Don't worry about what others think of you. At the end of the day they are not there with you when you are alone. You are. Like yourself and what you are all about.
12.Give service. The best way to forget your own troubles is to ease someone else's. When you are serving others, the focus is not on you. It's on someone else.
13.When you are having an especially hard time remember, The scriptures say, it came to pass. Not to stay. Hard times don't always last forever.
14.Gain a real and tangible testimony of the gospel. It will strengthen you and lift you up through every trial you face.
15. Forgive and forget. If I held a grudge against everyone that has crossed me or hurt me, I would eventually be mad at the whole world. Let it go. Genuinely give that person forgiveness and then forget that it ever happened.
16.BE a good listener. Everyone has a story and everyone needs to talk sometimes. Be the person they can talk to.
17. Be trustworthy. When someone tells you something in confidence, keep it to yourself. When someone tells you something it's a conversation, when you tell it to someone else, it's gossipping.
18.Pay everything off as soon as you can. The less bills you have the better off you will be when hard times come.
19. Appreciate what you have right now. It can all disappear as fast as you bought it. So be happy.
20.Live cleanly. Clean thoughts, clean homes, clean hearts, clean intentions, clean actions, and clean words.
1. Finish college and get a degree in something. Once you have kids, it's soooooo much harder.
2.Learn to say no. Just because your husband tells you that he needs something done that minute, does not mean that you have jump.
3.Your time is just as valuable as everyone else's. You were not put on this earth to be every one's maid, cook, chauffeur, etc.
4.Find something that you love and are passionate about. It doesn't matter what it is or how corny you may think it is, just find something that is yours and no one else's.
5.Don't whine. It really doesn't do any good and people get very tired of hearing it. Have a good attitude about everything and just get it done.
6.Take care of yourself. Take a bath, buy some pretty lotion, or get your hair done. But maintain your personal worth in your head and don't forget it.
7.Take time and enjoy your children. In the day to day rush it's really easy to get frustrated and mean with your children. Sit down and enjoy them. They will only be little once.
8. Everyday remind yourself why you married your spouse. Remind yourself of what you love about that person and look for the good in them daily.
9.Make friends. Not the kind that blow away at the first sign of wind, but the kind that are there during the tornado. They are priceless.
10. Don't judge others. Everyone has life experiences that shape their perspectives, attitudes, mannerisms, and the way they treat others. We may not fully understand why someone behaves the way they do, but it's not our job to judge them on whether it was right or not. It's our job to have compassion and love towards them. Everyone needs a friend.
11. Don't worry about what others think of you. At the end of the day they are not there with you when you are alone. You are. Like yourself and what you are all about.
12.Give service. The best way to forget your own troubles is to ease someone else's. When you are serving others, the focus is not on you. It's on someone else.
13.When you are having an especially hard time remember, The scriptures say, it came to pass. Not to stay. Hard times don't always last forever.
14.Gain a real and tangible testimony of the gospel. It will strengthen you and lift you up through every trial you face.
15. Forgive and forget. If I held a grudge against everyone that has crossed me or hurt me, I would eventually be mad at the whole world. Let it go. Genuinely give that person forgiveness and then forget that it ever happened.
16.BE a good listener. Everyone has a story and everyone needs to talk sometimes. Be the person they can talk to.
17. Be trustworthy. When someone tells you something in confidence, keep it to yourself. When someone tells you something it's a conversation, when you tell it to someone else, it's gossipping.
18.Pay everything off as soon as you can. The less bills you have the better off you will be when hard times come.
19. Appreciate what you have right now. It can all disappear as fast as you bought it. So be happy.
20.Live cleanly. Clean thoughts, clean homes, clean hearts, clean intentions, clean actions, and clean words.
Monday, January 9, 2012
A little Better, A little Brighter!
2012 has already gotten off to a better start than 2011. I am a very grateful girl.
My hubby and I both agree that we need a little break from the trials and tribulations that have happened to us this last year and we are definitely looking forward to a better year.
Things that we are looking forward to:
1. Moving into our newly built home.
2. Having many fun parties and get togethers in that new home.
3. Teaching our youngest how to ride a 2 wheeler.
4.Maybe taking a vacation with our little family sometime this year.
5.Having a clean home with no boxes in it.
6.More jobs coming our way.
7.Having fun with our kids and not being so serious all of the time.
I am sincerely hopeful for this year and all of the good things that it will bring. I know it will be a little better, and a little brighter.
My hubby and I both agree that we need a little break from the trials and tribulations that have happened to us this last year and we are definitely looking forward to a better year.
Things that we are looking forward to:
1. Moving into our newly built home.
2. Having many fun parties and get togethers in that new home.
3. Teaching our youngest how to ride a 2 wheeler.
4.Maybe taking a vacation with our little family sometime this year.
5.Having a clean home with no boxes in it.
6.More jobs coming our way.
7.Having fun with our kids and not being so serious all of the time.
I am sincerely hopeful for this year and all of the good things that it will bring. I know it will be a little better, and a little brighter.
Sunday, January 1, 2012
New Year, New Start, Right?
Last night was officially the best New Year's I have ever had! We took the kiddos to see War Horse. It was pretty good. Not great but pretty good. Then we went to Carraba's. That is my favorite restaurant by the way. Once you eat there, Olive Garden is kinda nasty. Just saying. Then we came home and went to bed at a nice 9:30 p.m. What a way to ring in the new year. Sigh.
So as I was sitting in church at 10:00 a.m. (Jealous?) I began thinking to myself about what I wanted to accomplish this year. I always believe that it's not too late to start something. So since I am officially posting this on cyberspace I will be bound to accomplish the next mentioned items. Here goes.
1.Lose weight. I have about 40 pounds. It's depressing to look in the mirror and not like what you see. I know that some of this weight is from miscarriages, PCOS, and sheer frustration. But I'm hoping to find something that will kick start my system so I can feel better. Phew. I have never said that out loud before.
2. Take a really fun vacation with just Mr. D., me and my kids. I love it when it's just us. We make really good memories together.
3.Decide what I want to do with my life. My youngest will be starting Kindergarten next year and I have no idea what I want to do with my spare time. That was a joke in case you didn't catch it the first time. I have never had spare time between the laundry, chauffeuring, cooking, cleaning, and extended family time. But I would like to be one of those moms that has something on the side. I like working. I like talking to other adults and having a product that people want to buy. It makes me feel good to be productive at something I love.
4.Go to the temple more often. I know I should. I know I need to be in that peaceful place more. I sure that I would be a more kind, loving, and forgiving person if I went more. The temple works miracles on my personality. :)
5.Master my church callings. Yes, I said callings. We moved into a ward where almost everyone has more than one calling. My callings are ward canning specialist, and a ma on the trek on March. Not really excited about either one but I want to get so good at both of them that I will learn to love them. "Come what may and love it." Joseph B. Wirthlin
6. Learn how to communicate better. This has been a source of some serious contention in my life. I don't like to discuss things. I can never say them in a way that people understand or take seriously. So I figure, why try? It's a bad habit. I become very quiet and withdrawn and I just want to be alone. It's funny but I can talk to everyone but the people closest to me. So I definitely need to work on communicating better.
Those are the thoughts that I have on a daily basis and I would like to conquer them once and for all. So here's to a wonderful 2012 filled with hope, a little breathing room, and some late night talks.
So as I was sitting in church at 10:00 a.m. (Jealous?) I began thinking to myself about what I wanted to accomplish this year. I always believe that it's not too late to start something. So since I am officially posting this on cyberspace I will be bound to accomplish the next mentioned items. Here goes.
1.Lose weight. I have about 40 pounds. It's depressing to look in the mirror and not like what you see. I know that some of this weight is from miscarriages, PCOS, and sheer frustration. But I'm hoping to find something that will kick start my system so I can feel better. Phew. I have never said that out loud before.
2. Take a really fun vacation with just Mr. D., me and my kids. I love it when it's just us. We make really good memories together.
3.Decide what I want to do with my life. My youngest will be starting Kindergarten next year and I have no idea what I want to do with my spare time. That was a joke in case you didn't catch it the first time. I have never had spare time between the laundry, chauffeuring, cooking, cleaning, and extended family time. But I would like to be one of those moms that has something on the side. I like working. I like talking to other adults and having a product that people want to buy. It makes me feel good to be productive at something I love.
4.Go to the temple more often. I know I should. I know I need to be in that peaceful place more. I sure that I would be a more kind, loving, and forgiving person if I went more. The temple works miracles on my personality. :)
5.Master my church callings. Yes, I said callings. We moved into a ward where almost everyone has more than one calling. My callings are ward canning specialist, and a ma on the trek on March. Not really excited about either one but I want to get so good at both of them that I will learn to love them. "Come what may and love it." Joseph B. Wirthlin
6. Learn how to communicate better. This has been a source of some serious contention in my life. I don't like to discuss things. I can never say them in a way that people understand or take seriously. So I figure, why try? It's a bad habit. I become very quiet and withdrawn and I just want to be alone. It's funny but I can talk to everyone but the people closest to me. So I definitely need to work on communicating better.
Those are the thoughts that I have on a daily basis and I would like to conquer them once and for all. So here's to a wonderful 2012 filled with hope, a little breathing room, and some late night talks.
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