THe only thing in life that stays the same...... You will always have to clean

This week has been a little crazy and frustrating. My sweet Uncle's funeral was yesterday. It was very nice and my children sang "I Hope They Call  Me On a Mission". They did a great job along with their cousins and we returned home by 3:00 p.m. to a filthy house. Exhausted, I changed my clothes and laid on my bed until it was time to go to work at 8:00 p.m. I proceeded to work and returned home at 10:30 p.m. to an even filthier house.

My darling children had decided to trash our playroom with popcorn, Wii games, movies, and DS games. I was not a happy mom when I woke up this morning. My husband still had not cleaned up his hunting gear from out of our kitchen and we have a sleeping bag on my couch that doesn't even belong to us. :(

Dirty dishes are overflowing as well as dirty laundry and I really don't care to look in the bathrooms to see the situations in there. Sigh. 

I really need to go grocery shopping but don't have the drive to go online and print my list off, coupons, and drive there.  Cereal for dinner isn't a bad thing, is it? I used to love to cook and clean, but now I really could care less about either. My domestic title has officially been stripped and it frustrates me a little. I literally just don't have the energy anymore.

I love having my job. I like the quiet time, the extra money it brings in, and the sense of accomplishment I have from doing it. But it's starting to take a little bit of a toll on my home life. I don't believe those mother's who work full time and say that they can do it all. Bull. Something suffers. Housework, time spent with children, laundry, etc. No one can have it all.

So I've decided that the only thing that I can count on in my life, is the fact that I will be cleaning for the rest of my life. Here goes!

Saying Goodbye

On Friday I was able to go and visit my aunt an uncle at the assisted living facility that they were living at. I am so grateful for that opportunity because my sweet uncle passed away on Sunday. He is an amazing man.

Those two had a lot of fun together. They traveled the world (numerous times), took cruises, lived abroad, worked for NASA, and always wanted to have fun. Uncle Ernie always had a smile on his face, loved to tell stories and jokes, and always looked forward to your hugs. You always felt special around those two.

He had to fight with cancer. Prostate, I think. Horrible disease and he deteriorated fairly quickly. His beautiful wife (Aunt Ann) was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer. She decided to have a mastectomy, and was then diagnosed with bone cancer. She also has Parkinson's disease. As these two were literally falling apart right next to each other, they took care of each other. It was a very dear and tender thing to see. I love them both very much.

Now my Aunt Ann is left here until it's her time to go. I can't imagine what she must be feeling right now. Sadness, loneliness, and frustration? Who knows. All I know is that she is amazing and wonderful and I pray that she will have comfort and peace right now. Anyone who is LDS knows that they will be together forever when she passes away. They will be with their parents and their son that passed away from a brain tumor. It will be wonderful when that happens. But for here and now, I will pray for her and the life that she will have now.

My Uncle Ernie was such a great guy. Always letting me swim in their pool, looking out for me, letting me clean their home to earn extra money, and always making me feel special whenever I came around. I love him and will miss him for the time being.

I don't usually bear my testimony because it is such a special thing for me, but I feel like I need to today. I have a firm testimony that when people pass on, it's not the end. I know that we can be with our families for eternity. To love and associate with them just as we did here on earth. I know that our loving Heavenly  Father wants us to be happy here on earth, and even though we have trials in our lives, we can still choose to be happy through them and look for the good in everything. I know that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints is the most complete and true church on the earth today and that the teachings it gives are true and correct. I know this. The Holy Ghost has let me know that what I am saying is true. In the name of Jesus Christ.... Amen.

Single Parent........ For Another weekend

So Mr. D. (my hubby) is gone again on another hunting trip. He's already gone on two and really felt the need to go again so that my oldest son can get his first kill. Luckily I only have one child at home this weekend and have nothing planned for the little guy.

So far I have scouted the movie theatres, looked up fun things for kids to do in our area (nothing), and have debated about whether or not to take him to a nice restaurant.  The movie theatres are a bust. They only have two Halloween kid shows playing. Hotel Transylvania (saw it last weekend with my other kid), and Frankenweenie (looks wierd and boring).

2 days of alone time. Heaven. I'm kind of a loner. I actually crave being by myself and reading, watching a good movie, or just not being nagged to death. I miss them when they are gone and are glad when they get home, but I don't mind them being gone every once in awhile.

The plans for today are to visit my aunt and uncle, my grandma, pay bills, grocery shop, eye appointment, hopefully go to lunch somewhere tasty, and hang out with my little guy tonight watching movies.

Tomorrow? Who knows.

The Holiday's Are Coming!!!!

OMG. FYI I am already making my gift lists for people that I know and love. Ok go ahead and laugh at how type A I am, but I don't care. There is a wonderful sense of satisfaction when everyone is purchased for, it's wrapped, and you can relax a bit. Lovely.

For as long as I can remember my mom has had all of her Christmas shopping done by October. Everyone laughed at how planned she was but when they were all at the Black Friday sales manning the crowds, she was at home. Ha

I like doing things that way. The holidays can be really hectic especially with as many people as we know. So a little prudence on my part is really going to pay off. Yay. I am so excited! So far my list includes 20 people and we are still counting. I guess that is something to be grateful for. A list full of people that mean something to me. :)

So far I have come up with salsa and chips, pumpkin pecan pies, hot chocolate kits, cookies, and gift baskets. I absolutely love the holidays. Cold air, comfort food, and friends and family. I can't wait.
Good luck to everyone as the craziness is about to begin.

Amazing!!!!

I do not know by what means it is possible that prayers are answered  but I am grateful that they are. These past 7 months have been wonderful. It always seems that after going through a really tough time there is a reprieve waiting at the end. Thank heavens.

After going through a tough patch for 3 years financially, we are finally seeing a little light. Things aren't as tight as they once were and I have a job that I thoroughly enjoy that doesn't take time away from my family. It's almost too perfect. It had to come from Heavenly Father. That's the only explanation that I can think of. The pay is exactly what I needed, my boss is the sweetest person I ever met, and the schedule is at night so I can be here for the kids during the day. Amazing.

I have noticed the blessings as I go through out my day. I wish money didn't play such a big part in our daily lives but unfortunately it does. But I have noticed that I don't have to stress out as much about what I buy at the grocery store. Or how I don't have to sweat over whether or not my kids can attend a birthday party because I can't buy a gift. Blessings, blessings,blessings.

Super grateful right now.