Befuddled

Befuddled. Now that's a mouth full. It's the word that I have chosen to describe my current state. Being that it's summer and I don't really have any pressing requirements on me every day, I'm feeling a little out of sorts. I don't have much to do, can't decide on what to do, and have no desire to do anything. Nothing seems uber important and everything is kind of just there.

I've started taking the kids to the library once a week to get enough books to occupy them for the week. They love it. The problem is, is that I find myself getting books for me and that's all I end up doing. Reading all day long. It's wonderful and I'm not complaining about being able to read books all day, it's just that I feel like I should be doing anything else.

The laundry, the park, the bathrooms, dinner, anything. But I just can't muster the energy or will to do it. I'm not sure if I'm a little depressed or lazy. I'll cook a fabulous 3 course meal for dinner one day, and then won't cook for 3 days after. We have run out of leftovers by then too and my husband is not a cereal for dinner kind of guy.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm not feeling myself. My life seems to go in cycles. One minute I'm super busy with kids, friends, and family, and I feel like I can't keep up. The next minute the phone is totally dead and there is nothing going on at all. I don't exactly know what do to with myself. THe good thing is that I know that it won't be like this forever and I'm trying to enjoy the quiet and tranquility before the crazy comes again. I just feel a little lost right now.

Befuddled words from a befuddled girl.